It's 11:30 pm. Today my horoscope said that 10pm would be my lucky time but my day however, would be very stressful. I must say, considering my day and night..It had to be dead on.
Life is always filled with problems you have to overcome.
About a year ago, one of my best friends committed suicide. The last text that i got from here said 'I need you.' Kell always told me that she needed me. She was and forever still, will be, my best friend. We needed each other. I didn't think anything of the text because honestly, Kelli seemed happy. She played it off well and i should have realized the signs. That's where the problems in life you have to overcome statement comes into play. I can't blame myself any more.
That leads me into the main focus of this post:
Over Thanksgiving weekend, I went to Maryland for family visits. About a week pier to that, I started talking to this guy(I'm going to present initials in place of his name), KET. KET was and is a very interesting person. I wanted to get to know him a whole lot more. Within a week, he really let me into his life. Details, hopes, dreams, i kid you not, everything. I really started to fall for him. I messed it up on a 10 hour car ride home.
I'm an insomniac, meaning i rarely sleep because my body has such a hard time getting tired, falling asleep, and staying asleep. On the drive home, I had been texting KET for about 4 hours when 4am came around and i finally fell asleep. When I awoke it was sunday evening and I was in my driveway with a dead cell phone. Plugging my phone into the charger, I didn't bother to turn it on.
I left it off the night and laid in bed for school in the morning. When my alarm clock went off at 5:30 am I was wide awake, and turned on my cell phone. I had plenty of texts that i replied to. When I came across KET's text, i froze and became really scared.
The words on the screen, "I need you."
I freaked, and now realizing and looking at it all over again, I completely jumped to conclusions. I called him, texted him, still no response. I went to school and tried to stay calm. I made a rash choice and told someone about the text.
The result. I lost KET for a very long time as a friend.
Yes, he is still, very much alive. Although, I know he's terrified to open up to me again, and we rarely ever talk, I still cherish every minute that I talk to him.
I've come to conclusion, that right now, my happy mood is because of him. Because he is giving me a chance again, and we have talked for the past 2 hours.
I've realized to trust my horoscope so much more. To think more rationally and not to compare all my problems and memories to the new ones I have to face everyday.
I'm in a amazing mood, and nothing can bring me down right now.
R.I.P. Kelli Jean
♥
at least you got a somebody
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