K.E.T.

So, I have a habit of writing initials of the person I can't stop thinking about on my wrist. Hence, the title of this post.

K.E.T., I have, I think, 2 other posts that involve this person, or have been directed towards this person.

The thing about KET, is that I messed up a while ago. I hurt him, and he's given me another chance. I want it all back though. I want the conversations, the intimacy, the feeling that was there before. Since i have been given a chance I don't deserve, I want, well...need...to prove to him that I am sorry. As much as I say it, he always says that it's fine. That it's all alright and it doesn't matter anymore.

Sorry's don't mean anything unless the person who said it, means it, and has learned their lesson and won't do it again. More than half the time, a person says sorry just to say it. The phrase, 'I'm Sorry.' is so completely overused in the day to day life styles. It's ridiculous. It takes away the true meaning, and leaves the phrase completely pointless. Most of the time, to use the phrase is inappropiate and it's a waste of time.

I think, well I know, that i expect to much from people. I expect to much of this world. But what I think would make this world even a faction better..Is if we stopped using 'sorry' as a cop out and use it for it's true meaning.

I know, that I personally, and completely fed up with people telling me they are sorry and then going and repeating the same mistake and/or acting like it's not a big deal, and that they don't care.

Yes, it's past New Years, but I have decided that my another New Years resolution of mine is to stop saying sorry for pointless reasons. And if I do say sorry, I have decided that I will show that person that I am sorry more than anything.

I can't say that I will accomplish this, or if i will fail. But I can say that, I Am Willing To Give It My Best.