I guess, now it's my turn

Yesterday, I showed someone my blog. A post that was about them to be exact.
I guess, I turned on the 'fuse' in his head that made him realize that not everything was okay between us. And when it was all over. The yelling was done..the tension was gone..the huge weight lifted off my, off our, shoulders, the only thing i could ask myself was, 'Should I Just Leave For Good? And Not Come Back. Save Him The Headache?'

And when I told him that I was thinking about leaving..the only thing he asked was, 'This isn't the part where you run off when things are finally fine, is it?'It got me thinking..Now that everything is better between us, should I stick around to have the possibility of screwing it up again? Or should I just leave while we are on the same wavelength with things?

And then it hit me. I cannot leave this boy.
Whether he's only a friend..or more..I can't just leave, and walk away after everything. I have no idea if theres even a chance that he will be the way we used to be. Or if this is all just going to end up like crap in the long run. Or if we'll even be friends next week.

But I do know, that I'm suppose to stick around and fight it out. And just be thankful that the tension is gone..and that things can be better. And they will get better. The future only comes one step at a time.

I need to keep reminding myself that.