Tell me.

Tell me...
..Why I care.
..Why I'm still here.
..Why I'm still trying.
..If I should stay or if I should go.
..If you care enough for all of this.

Over the course of a week, things have changed so much. I lost one of my best friends to a car accident. I've dropped plenty of people simply becase I didn't feel like putting up with their problems and drama when I already have problems of my own to deal with.

In the course of a month, I think that I have changed as a person, even at the slightest.

Over the course of a year, I have changed schools.. Houses.. Friends.. Activities.. Thoughts.. And opinions all because of new things I have experienced.

Do I Think It's A Good Change?
That's simple.
Yes.

I ran away. Not in the context of running away like a teen that hates life and does it to tr to escape and gets caught sleeping at a friends house.
I Ran Away. In the terms that I decided to change schools, houses, friends. I did it because I needed to get away from the problems that I was scared to face. Things like, loosing Kelli, fighting with KC all the time, fighting with my brothers and grandma, and the death of my mother.

Right now, I've realized that you can't escape your problems..no matter where you go. They will always be there.

I'm sure we all know the famous story of The Wizard of Oz.
It's similar to this. Dorthy runs away to escape things, but she finds the same problems in the fantasy world she escapes to. You may think that you can run away and find ways to escape, and if yo do. Kuddo's to you. You deserve to be the next Houdini.

So, I think that it's time to just grow up and face reality. To realize that I'm only hurting myself more by not dealing with these things. To stand up, hold my head high and have faith that I wouldn't get knocked down.